All of a sudden I feel nervous to write in here, though I'm sure that will fade. It's just that my faith is the closest thing to my heart and I tend to be wounded easily by the remarks of others even though I am strong and will not waver. I'm stoked that I finally created a journal for my spiritual musings since I've been talking about it for so long. I keep a paper journal that I write in during church and when I'm studying, but I love to be able to type and use stream of consciousness to string all my thoughts together. Plus, ljbook is an amazing thing so I can print out my entries to keep for always.
Earlier in the day I really wanted to write endlessly about everything burning & embossing my soul, but after taking a walk and finally returning to my seat, I just couldn't focus on one particular emotion I want to write about. I did, however, run across this quote in my e-mail that I think definately sets the basis for my feelings right now, especially with my mission service being so near. I think it's a good intro to pages and pages of feelings and thoughts that I will soon hopefully gather and share.
I think this is going to be a great outlet for me, and a good way to keep on track, to gain from others [all of you wonderful people reading! :)], and to compose myself during hardships and trials with the adversary. A good journal is always a trusty old friend.
"My beloved brethren, you and I, today and always, are to bless all peoples in all the nations of the earth. You and I, today and always, are to bear witness of Jesus Christ and declare the message of the Restoration. You and I, today and always, are to invite all to receive the ordinances of salvation. Proclaiming the gospel is not a part-time priesthood obligation. It is not simply an activity in which we engage for a limited time or an assignment we must complete as members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Rather, missionary work is a manifestation of our spiritual identity and heritage. We were foreordained in the premortal existence and born into mortality to fulfill the covenant and promise God made to Abraham. We are here upon the earth at this time to magnify the priesthood and to preach the gospel. That is who we are, and that is why we are here--today and always."
--- Elder David Bednar